I have once before experienced Heaven. The true, perfect euphoria that you can only experience in Heaven. Maybe if I don’t sleep My mind can be high enough to experience heaven again. Right now I am chill. My body is in a sitting position and my insides are smiling so big that you can see the energy and warmth from around the block. My mind, my mind. Oh my mind. Is like a precious jewel. It is refined and it is growing. I wish that my brain could only take the pen from my hand.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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