I know how you feel is profoundly intoxicating in the way your mind and emotions reach revelations and realms that seem out of touch usually (sorry if my explanation is a bit off), but it is ONLY a result of a change in your brain chemistry. As others have suggested it it crucial that you continue to be in contact with your, and the on call, pdoc as often as needed. This will help you function better and be able to continue with your work and studies. Maybe it is best you stay home this weekend to rest and recover, and most importantly, stay safe.

You are a beautiful, intelligent woman and a fantastic mother and wife. We are all here to support you so keep posting if you need to communicate.