I'm a recovering meth addict and I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 when I was 14, I've taken a few medications that only left me feeling void of all emotions. I started using to feel something... ANYTHING! I'm sure we all can guess... Meth is not the answer. I lost everything including my seven year old daughter... I'll never be able to apologise enough to her. Normally I do okay and I'm able to focus on the fact that I'm getting better but other times... Like right now... I feel like a waist of space and time and then this evil person living in the back of my brain constantly screaming to me that my daughter is better off with out me and I might as well give up and go get high .. it's really hard to ignore that voice on nights like tonight...