I am not afraid of integration at all and I can see how it is just a "process". I am by no means integrated but I can see how during the course of therapy me and my crew have moved towards integration just by becoming aware of and learning about each other. Now we can share some of each others stories, we can communicate with some parts of us better, we are learning about our joint history and lifetime of experiences that lead to us becoming... us. Some of us (me) are beginning to be able to see and understand the process of dissociation within us and how it all unfolded. How it was necessary. I am also aware of other parts of us who are still very much stuck in a sense of experiencing all other inners ones as "not-me". And I can see why that is, why they need that. And I can see how this process of me learning and seeing and understanding about all of the parts of us (me) IS the process of "integration".

I am not afraid of it at all. I very much want it for me and...them. Us.