So my girlfriend of a decade broke up with me on sunday. I thought i was depressed before lol. So now im an unemployed 33 year old living at home with his parents. Worse yet my dad had a stroke in the last six months so now they are broke and im a burden of an even bigger sort. She had to choose now to break up with me? I was a loser the whole relationship, it took ten years to figure this out? The reason? No big reason, she just doesnt love me anymore. There was no cataclysmic event. Couldnt she have at least pretended to fall in love with someone else? That it wasnt just all me she was rejecting? That she preferred to live alone than see my dumb face is pretty bad.

So what am i going to do now? Last time i was at home i was a 23 year old and it wasnt that big of a deal. Now im old and im still that 23 year old in every way possible. All the options to a 23 year old are open to me i guess, i could go to college or something but im 33 now. I wish i could improve myself enough so if she heard about me she would for one split second regret she broke my heart. Thankfully for the time being im mostly still numb, im sure a nuclear bomb of depression is coming though.