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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
My outer wold came crashing down on me about 5 years ago and I split myself, while really experiencing and seeing it.
That brought everything from my earlier experiences into my real life. I feel like I should say, it brought all of the shattered pieces of me into my mind as fragmented pieces.
I started working then with my counselor and had no idea of dissociation or “pieces of me” in the beginning.
As we worked through it, I found those pieces and valued them for who they were and brought them to a safe place. I feel like I brought them to “me” and a place that they could be heard through me.
As this process happened with these pieces of me, I feel like they became a part of me.
Is that what you speak of as integration?
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Thank you for having the courage to share about your experience.
I am no expert on integration. I only know about it what I take in from my own research on the topic.
But I can relate to what you have written here. I also find pieces of self ("others") scattered around the place and have a strong need to take them in, shelter them, and keep them safe. Some of them have been taken in to the point where perhaps the lines between self and not-self are now very blurred. I suppose that is part of the process of "integration".
I personally take the overview of seeing the whole sordid picture. I can see that these parts that consider themselves to be "not-mes" are actually necessarily dissociated aspects of this one physical being that is... me /us. I "get" that all of us are parts of one living being. Even though we operate and perceive ourselves to be varying degrees of individual and not-each other. I don't know if that is the same experience as you, but it seems to be the same general function... maybe? My view of "integration" is developing more of that understanding and acceptance and togetherness. More of a sense of I me my mine.