I'm sure many can relate to your fears, Betty_Banana, as they have already shown in this thread. You're definitely not alone in this. Do you still have the same fears or have you been able to fight them? If it's the former, don't worry, I think it's perfectly normal and I'm sure you'll feel better at some point, so just try your best in therapy like you're already doing. Please don't give up. If it's the latter, congratulations! Be proud of yourself. Sending many hugs to you