Cool. I unlocked more emotions I didn't know I had.

I'm not hurting myself though. This started with me trying to journal to practice self compassion and validate my own feelings and experiences and all that bull**** like you would want me to do. But then it was overwhelming and I was feeling all of it all at once and it was too much and I couldn't stop crying. So now I'm back to numbness.
I'm trying to tell myself what you've told me before. That it's my brain protecting me because the feelings are too overwhelming. That it doesn't mean I'm faking it. See? I'm trying. I really do try sometimes.
God I hope I never cry like that in front of you though. What would you even do?
Would you care?