I would have psychotic symptoms and then minimize them when I wasn't having them. It took about a decade for me to finally accept that I had a psychotic illness that wasn't going away. it is hard to accept when the symptoms wax and wane. Unfortunately I believe each episode does brain damage and I believe taking a low dose AP does less than repeated episodes would do plus the damage to my life that has occurred. Of course I dont' want to be projecting the downward spiral my illness took even though I was in regular psychiatric care all through it.

I believe I coudl have avoided the worst outcomes by accepting it earlier. I fancied I had a neurological problem rather than a psychiatric one.