You are in a difficult situation, Blue, and I hope you get the treatment you deserve. Perhaps talk it over with your therapist if you trust them? I agree it was an inappropriate comment by your psychiatrist. Don't forget it is also not great for our brains to have uncontrolled mental illness in the long run, though, whether we control it through medication or other means. I think my depression/anxiety has affected my cognition and memory and this is without meds in the picture.