I got my first cat in april. His name is sunshine. He's 6. I got my 2nd cat in november. His name is Boots. He's 9. I'm getting a 3rd cat next month. The max number of cats you can have in my city is 3 so I won't be able to get more. The problem is I'm obsessed with them. I'm on disability so I'm home all day. I don't go out. I missed Christmas. I quit my day program. All so I could spend more time with them. I have dresser drawers filled with cat treats, toys, cat vitamins, etc. It's depressing because they are the only thing that helps with my ptsd. It was so bad before I got sunshine. But when I got boots my obsession got much worse. That's when I started ordering tons of cat supplies off amazon. They're food costs me 100 a month for both of them. I buy expensive food even though I don't have the money. Every time they sneeze I worry they have a disease. I have read 4 books in the last month just on cats and cat care. Sunshine is sitting on my lap right now. It's so so depressing just thinking about it. What will I do when they die? These thoughts keep me awake at night. My hypomania made the obsession worse but that's gone now. My family is concerned. My therapist is concerned. My therapist believes I have OCD but I don't think so because my place is very messy and very cluttered. I just don't know what to do. The main reason I wanted to do the day program was because of this issue. But when I'm with them the ptsd, anxiety especially, and depression go away. When I'm away from them, the anxiety is terrible. I just don't know what to do.