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Originally Posted by ACrystalGem
First off, I'd like to say thanks to everyone on this forum for just being there. Isolation has been the theme of my life, and I feel less isolated just knowing this place exists. So thanks.
Right, a question: do your Alters ever dream? Not daydream, but fully asleep dream or nightmares? Sorry if this seems like a basic question, but I'm struck with how little information there is on DID and what the alters can do. My youngest alter, Lizzie, seems very much stuck in 1972 (when I was three), and since that's also when my (Outside Jacq) memories start, all those memories are of abuse. So you can imagine, none of her dreams are very pleasant. I'm not angry with her, but it's been really hard on me lately.
I'm asking this, because I want to communicate better with her - and all the alters really, but she and one other alter seem really difficult for me to do so. How do you communicate with your alters? Do you have a mixture of styles? Any ideas would be appreciated.
P.S - it's not a typo, Youse is the Scottish version of Y'all. I like using a phrase that's closer to home than the U.S
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As far as I know none of my alters dreamed.
In order for my alters to be in control I had to be in a dissociative state of mind mentally and physically. this happened due to my being triggered by something. when the alters took control they were doing their sense of agency...
example... in order for rainy to be in control at night certain things had to happen...
I would have had to be awake and have to have been triggered by a thunder rain storm.
then I would enter the mental and physical state of mind called dissociation (discussed in my thread
Integration )
Then my alter Rainy would be in control because thunder storms were the triggers for her.
then rainy would get out of bed, make sure we were dry/ warm and eating something.
when the rain storming stopped the trigger is gone so my body would switch back to its non dissociative state mentally and physically.
when I or my alters were not in control of the body it wasnt like sleeping and dreaming. it was just one moment I or my alters were laying in bed and the next moment it was hours and days later with no idea what went on during that bracket of lost time.
during this time when my body was switched into being mentally and physically dissociated I experienced no dreaming (REM and other dreaming phases) because the body was functioning as the alters doing what ever their sense of agency was. when I was in control of the body the alters didnt dream because again I was consciously aware doing my thing.
thats the closest I can get to explaining it with out a lot of textbook words and such.
to find out more about what alters can and cant do you will need to understand things like how the brain works, how your alters were created, what your alters sense of agency is and lots more, if you have a treatment provider they can help you with learning all about you and your alters, dissociation, the brain and much more.