Thank you for the kind words. I am glad that I found this site.
I seem to be able to talk until I'm blue in the face, think things are worked out in my mind, then I go right back to worrying! I had stopped this for about 3-4 years, even through my divorce things were fine. But for some reason now I have started to obsess about my boyfriend!
A few months ago there was an issue with a female that he works with and sees every day. That, although I trust him completely, threw me back into this horrible anxiety. Why does it just come and go as it pleases? And why does it pick things like this to obsess about?? I used to stress about my weight...I wish I could go back to that because that was easier to take my mind off of. This, on the other hand, nothing takes my mind off of.

I make up scenarios in my mind and 'rehearse' what I would say in different situations. This can go on for hours until I force myself get up and do something. Sure, I have other issues that I stress about, but I seem to have focused on this one and can't stop. His phone rang last night and he looked at the caller ID and then got up when the answering machine came on... I have read so much into that that I haven't even gotten out of my pjs all day...and it's time to go to bed again now!

Since I have OCD, too, it just makes things worse. I take Trazodone to help me sleep and it works well. I don't want to have to take anything else, but... This is ruining my life.