I'm so sorry, DazedandConfused254 I understand how you feel. For how long have you felt like this? It takes time to get over certain people in our lives. But yes, I do believe you'll get over it eventually. You're already doing the best you can: counselling, meds, ecc. So please try to hang on to that. I'm sorry you haven't had much luck with women so far, but that could change as well. Keep trying if you can. If it's not working, I'd suggest to limit the amount of times you see this friend of yours - especially on social media. I don't think seeing her pictures on Instagram is going to do you any good. Try to avoid things like that if you can. Please don't give up, things can get better. Just do your best like you're already doing - that's all you can do after all. Keep going to therapy, try to meet some new people, maybe find some new hobbies. That's all the advice I can give, unfortunately. You can do this! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you