Dot you sound depressed to me? It sounds like your having mood
swings to. I'm sorry you feel this way.

I have terrible mood wings to. I never took anti-depressants or mood stabilizers. But know I'm at a point in my life where I re-evaluated the situation. So I Decided to try a very-low dose anti-depressant it helps with mood swings. My Doctor says that
my Depression is situational meaning when things change and
the ride in my life becomes smoother I will be happier and more
Level.

I know you have had your issues to. But I cannot say if its
situational or not? I think you should seek out another Therapist....no matter what people think that are i your life.

You have to swallow your pride sometimes....I know England and the U.S. are so different and the culture is different. But there
must be a way you can help do something about it?

Hope some of this has helped..???

Hang in there
Ziggy