I went out so I didn't have to sit alone at home,I am keeping distracted so that I don't have to feel my emotions,I am numb inside anyway,and feel like I am going through a dark period in my life.Or it might just be the January blues,in fact today is blue Monday,the third Monday in January is the one when people get seriously depressed,after spending too much at xmas and failing to stick to their new year resolutions and reflecting on the disappointments of last year,everyone goes into a downer.I guess I have been hit by the blue Monday bug.I am coping by going out a lot so that I don't have to make do with being completely alone but can lose myself in the crowd,even small talk with the woman working at the cafe and the cinema staff and newsagents kiosk is better than sitting at home asking myself how I really feel about my life.Cos if I were to answer that question I'd say my life so far is a disappointment.There it is out in the open now.My life is a disappointment!