Hi MickeyCheeky,

I have been going downhill for about 3 years now, which is when I attempted to ask out the person I mentioned in the OP. But its only been for the past 6 months to about a year when I have really tried to reveal my painful feelings since its been difficult for me to open up, since I'm sometimes afraid of what people might say and often get choked up about it. However, I have got a start by re-discovering myself and passions since starting grad school, and during my time off during Christmas my parents have been really thoughtful and supportive in this matter also.

You're definitely right about avoiding some of those triggers because I am the type to attach emotions and memories with pictures and possessions. I can only hope things can get better. However that may be an illusion since I've made so many mistakes and have difficulty seeing new people due to my ever-changing schedule and most people just don't seem very forgiving of mistakes and blunders like I've had in my life so far. But no matter what thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words! Hugs right back