Just in case you don't read posts on the couch, I wanted to share this here also.... it's really not helping things, it only fueled my worthless feelings

I'm not one who often remembers dreams or reads much into them. Weirdly it seems I only remember dreams involving t. I had a weird one last night and wondered your thoughts on it

So first I'll say....I have a near lifelong issue of jealousy of women. It was something t knew about but we never worked on. After he left ...I became almost rageful in my mind with my thoughts of women in his life.

In my dream, I saw him at a concert type place with lots of people around. I got so excited that he seemed to be coming to sit by me but he chose the bench behind me.

There were several women there. He started laughing with them and seemingly being flirty and just being his silly self for laughs. I got sad and turned away

Later I looked back and didn't see him, it's weird. I just saw women sitting there but still laughing. Well one of them got up and came over to me, introduced themselves as Rosie and sat down. Looking in the eyes I instantly knew it was him. I was so confused and wondered if he had been miserable in his body too or something

We didn't talk as I woke up but most of the dream he was himself but then was her. My jealousy is not about harm to women but rather feelings of not being good enough. They are better than me. I'm almost certain this is this issue coming out in my dream but I don't get why my mind changed him to a woman. Thoughts?

And then I added this part that I didn't want to share originally



I'm so confused what's going on in my mind now. Why do I only remember dreams about him? I'd like happy dreams