Idk but the woman idea makes sense.... although it's not his new life as much as the people in it... because I got cut out.

I'm not sure why sexual feelings would be trying to come out when he isn't even in my life anymore and likely never will be? Like I think my mind understands that so idk.

As much as I don't feel therapy is for me being an avoidant, I'd consider it to work through the jealousy but I don't really believe anything will change. I don't think talking about something makes it change. I already know where the intense jealousy issue stems from... nothing to do with him. Happened ages ago. I don't need to explore that... I just wish there was a good way to work on it without therapy. I know I need to fix it. I've even had this issue with my best friend, I ignore her (she usually does to me with texts) if I hear about her traveling with a women friend etc. I wont talk to other women at work once they have talked to another woman in front of me. It's not just a T thing, I know that much