what does this mean anyway? how do i know if i am psychotic?
the definition of psychosis on this site is so vague!

i have some ideas that people think are delusional.... but i think they are true!
sometimes as im drifting off to sleep, a wire in my mind shorts and overlaps consciousness with a dream state.... and i hear things. but it scares me enough that i jump and snap out of it......
sometimes when i feel a sharp sudden pain or itch i can hear it.. like a buzz and i can feel the sudden trob inside my mind....almost like i have slowed down my awarness of the itch and i am able to experience it in slow motion.
sometimes i am so pissed i want to kill.
i eat super hot hot sauce cuz i firmly believe it will kill the infection in my brain that is causing mucous to cloud my thinking when i get depressed.
i know it sounds "delusional" to people but i also believe that i can think so deeply and i am so self aware that i experience more than other people... and average people simply cannot understand my high level of thinking.
i could list more but i am paranoid that you all dont like me anymore, and that youre ignoring me. and sometimes i worry that you dont even exist. ... like sometimes i fear that i will wake up and realize that i am not even in my house right now. i may be in an institution right now. and i am typing on a computer that isnt there, and im drooling and staring into space. i fear that may be true so sometimes i cry, and i pray that i will never wake up.

i just really want some honest opinions! i am in a low episode of this so-called "bipolar disorder" (which could be nothing more than a state of hypnosis i am in)
are there any clear definitions of psychosis? is this because of the "bipolar" disorder? and what is a delusion, if not simply a difference of opinion. ?

where are the answers????