Great deal = $100,000 (the first time lasted 10 months)

At the first time I had left a rather confining and abusive marriage. A lot of the money was spent on discovering who I was.

Travel, Jeep, very expensive kayaks and equipment, trailer, back country equipment (all season), etc. Outings - lots of them. Any two days off meant another road trip, another lake kayaked, another mountain hiked, another cave spelunked, etc. Year round adventures. Paid for other people to join me at times. Pubs and musicians and friends. Art supplies, lots of expensive art supplies. But always an adventure. It was quite the life.

This time around, another car, a tent trailer, and travel.

I am such an idiot.

I admit I fritter away money even when I have very little of it too. Never more than I can afford or to bring me into debt but if I have it I spend it.

Isn't this a hallmark of being bipolar? I always thought it was.