in 2012 my world became so heavy I wound up ip ...

when I went back to work I refused to accept any subscribers that had been the issue ...

mostly gov accounts ... some with 3 letter names ... some with no public name ...

for the last 6 years i have slowly got my stress level stable with meds but mostly because

of the " calmness " in my work ... and my direct refusal to allow my clearences to be

restored ...

tomorrow I go for recertification for public utilities ... gov is probability next ... it seems my

company feels they will explode if I don't do this ... and I know where it is going ...

it just seems so unfair ... the reason for all this is the goof balls that make the same

money as me but are basically useless ... I will not lose the gains I have made in the last

6 years ... keep me in your prayers guys ... Tigger ..