I kind of thought about posting about this for a long time, but never did because I honestly don't know if there's anything anyone could say that would be useful. I have brought it up before to other people and although their suggestions seemed fine at the time nothing really helped.
I hope I don't sound a bit all over the place and that I make sense because I haven't quite figured out a perfectly comprehensible way of explaining it.
I have terrible...I'm gonna call it anxiety, at night. And while I could try and come up with many reasons as to why that is I can't give a single definitive reason. Maybe that's part of the problem. So I guess there's a combination of reasons. Such as nightmares and sleep paralysis for some reason (I think I've figured that sleep paralysis usually only happens if I attempt to fall asleep flat on my back but nonetheless it makes me anxious knowing it happens so much). But I suppose I could also list paranoia as a reason of some sort, because that's something I deal with just in general. And while I like sleeping when I'm just asleep and not experiencing anything scary, I don't like the idea of being completely helpless. I have a pretty vivid imagination so that and paranoia make for a very nasty combination. I do dislike the dark, but that itself isn't the problem, or at least not the only problem, because I do sleep with a small light every night, which doesn't always help, and sometimes I even sleep with all the lights on, which doesn't help too much. Something terrifies me and I don't know what, and more importantly I don't know how to combat it. It causes a significant amount of sleep loss which I then try to make up for during the day. On that note I have no problem sleeping during the day it is just night...when it's dark.