I'm so sorry you're struggling, sinking Please don't give up. You're strong, I know that. Remember that you're loved here. Try to hang on. One day at the time, or even one hour at the time. Take baby steps. You've already felt better yesterday, so things CAN get better again. Keep writing here if it helps. Stay safe and take care of yourself. We all love you here, sinking. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this