I'm so sorry things are being so hard for you, Sò leigheas Please don't give up. You can do this. I know you can, you've been fighting for so long. How are things going with your T? Is it helping a bit? Keep writing here if it helps. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can help you in some way. We all love you here, please remember that, my friend. Sending many hugs to you