Me: (feeling hurt/angry) your fake. I've just come today to double check this.

T: "OK. I understand that. But why only now are you saying in fake?"

Me: (brain like a hamster wheel) I dunno.

T: "and lets say all that is true. What would that mean to you?

Me: (brain back on the wheel) uuumm, that coming here is a waste of time.

T:" so then you wouldn't have to feel any of those feelings about me if I'm fake and this has just been a waste of time. You can pack them all away"

Me: "oh 💭" (I'm fighting the knowledge that no way would I have been seeing her for so many yes I'd sure were fake or a waste of time. I do needed to try and get control of the uncontrollable feelings. She was right.)