Ok you are accepted to study abroad. If you want it and have opportunities and means for it then you should go and do it. He is a boyfriend. Not a husband or a father of your minor kids. No way you need to not enjoy things because of a boyfriend. And “you think” he loves you. Heck you don’t even know how he feels and you already put your life on hold. Ditch the guy and go enjoy your life while you are young.