Sorry for saying I wanted him to go to hell. I talked to my T about this today. For one thing he(my old T) always said he would never initiate contact with a client or formal client , I would have to be the first to say hi or whatever. Well so much for that, he came all the way across the gym and gets in my face ( I was looking down at my Ipod) trying to ignore him and waves and says hello. I didn't initiate anything, I wasn't even looking at him. He even looked happy to see me, smiling ear to ear. IT kinda pissed me off, doesn't he know the hurt he caused me? We used to say hello to each other when I was his client, so maybe he thought it was okay. But that was 7 mo. ago.

My current T said he was probably breaking the ice. Well maybe, I haven't seen him in over 4 months. But I have seen him since I fired him at the gym, so I thought the ice was already broken.

I used to think the world of this guy, but now I see what he has done to me, and I don't want anything to do with him. What does he think now we haven't had therapy for over 7 months, he can sleep with me now or whatever? I know if I tell him to leave me alone, he will. My T says if he does this again, I should tell him.
What do you all think. I guess many of you don't know the whole story. But there was some serious attraction going on between us and I eventually fired him because it was becoming too personal and he lost his objectivitiy and I no longer saw him as my therapist so I couldn't do the therapy I needed. We worked together for 2 1/2 years.He never put a finger on me, but that doesn't mean he didn't cross the ethic lines in therapy. I wrote a poem about us on my blog.
Thanks goodness I have a very good therapist now. I don't need the confusion of a therapist in love with me. Maybe that is why I no longer wear makeup, dress like a boy, because I don't want my T to be attracted to me.
Another reason I gained weight in my life, I don't want others to judge me on my looks, I want them to like me for me and my personality. I used to do some modeling for the photographer when I was 18 (fully clothed, not bathing suits or nude or anything like that) and I don't know, I don't like men looking at me. But it pisses me off, I am now really fat, and guys still won't leave me alone. My T says maybe it was me who the guys really did like in the first place, not just my looks. Gosh do I have issues.