I guess that, as I've gotten older, I want to be alone more. For me, during the weekdays, I don't mind being alone that much. But on the weekends I feel the loneliness more. Especially lately I want to leave where I live now because it's just too close for comfort with other people. I feel like I fight with people more than I enjoy being with them. So I'd rather be alone than to have confrontations.

I think to myself that I would love to have a little house to myself out in a less populated area. I could do what I want without worrying about bothering someone else and that no one else would bother me. But a job that's well suited for me, like the one I have now, tends to be in the cities and not out in the country.

I don't like being alone all of the time. I feel that relationships with others are important. As of now at where I live, I prefer to be alone than to be with others who are bad. But in that case, being all alone is the lesser of the evil of being with bad company. It seems like that's the only choice that I have.