Sorry I should have given more details when originally posting.

In the last week he was saying how he wants us to be happy together and we need to work through any of our issues. We've made a lot of plans, holidays living together children and marriage.

He comes over and we talk about his operation he's having soon, about getting there and after care etc.
He very very stressed with work. It's an enormous strain. He's got a very important meeting next week with directors etc, they have it every 6 months and he's had to do load of preparation and it's a hard time for him.

He's having issues with his dad, they don't have a relationship and I know that breaks his heart.

I think what I'm trying to say is that I can feel his love for me, I know he does.

He's in a very bad place and I can't do much if he doesn't want me to.

I'm willing to wait for as long as I feel I need to. Obviously if I don't hear from him in a few weeks then I'll know that's it. But I guess I'm half expecting he to contact me after his meeting as that would have lifted

I don't know, I think I'm rambling