Hello, I'm Jen. I've been around here for a while but never posted. Never knew what to say. I was diagnosed with BPI at 14, almost 19 years ago. Never had much treatment. Dealing mostly alone. Family isn't and never has been supportive. My husband does the best he can, but he doesn't understand. I try to teach him what I can about BP and how it affects me. I have 1 friend, she lives in another state, 4 hours aways. She does what she can by listening to me but I fear she gets tired of hearing about my problems. I have severe social anxiety and this is really hard for me. It's taken a year and a half or so to get the courage to post here. I need to talk to people, but it's so hard. I have a really hard time reaching out to anyone. There's so much I want to talk about but I have no idea where to start or how to start. I always feel like people aren't going to care or what I say doesn't matter.