I'm so sorry, DarknessIsMyFriend I know how you feel. If your work is making you feel so miserable, I agree that finding another job may be the best solution at this point. I know it isn't easy, but you can't know how it will go until you try. So I'd say go for it! I think you can make it. You even have some work experience this time around, so perhaps it will be easier. I think it's worth trying. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you