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Originally Posted by Mopey
And I'm going to add to that that my first experience with feeling good came a couple of weeks after I started with Prozac. I was walking around a shopping center with my husband, and all of a sudden I realized, "Something's wrong!" What was wrong was that for once I was not depressed. I never knew how it felt before. And once I started analyzing how Prozac worked I realized that for some reason it had started to block the negative thoughts that were constantly in my brain, beating me down, telling me I was worthless.
It used to be that I would have i or 2 lucid seconds after I woke up in the morning, before the downward spiral of thoughts began, where I would feel OK. Then once the self-hating,
self-critical thoughts kicked in I was a goner for the rest of the day. Wonder if that might be a factor for you.
And no question -- sometimes exercise can help. Gets you focussing on something other than the negative thoughts.
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Yes I'm on Effexor, have never tried Prozac. Like you said, one morning I just felt they started working and I didn't have the depression/anxiety. So I think they help me too even though I hope to come off them at some point.
When I had it worst the mornings were the worst for me. Waking very early and having terrible anxiety. Now it comes and goes, not always sure why. Then I get so desperate and don't know what to do. It's overwhelming.
Yesterday I was at a job coach for the first time. One of the questions she asked was "When do you feel at your best, when you feel life is amazing". I really had a hard time answering it. She doesn't know about my struggles, so I just ended up saying things like "working out, reading..."
About living more "normally". I just look at other people my age and compare myself to them (even though I don't know them). Also to my sister who has it more together on the outside. I know there are all kinds of people in the world living in all kinds of ways and they have struggles and doubts too. I think I just have a hard time accepting myself and my situation. I hope it's not forever.
Hope you're doing okay.