You're not whining and it's not your fault, Fuzzybear. I'm so sorry you've been treated like this. Please remember that everyone is deserving of love and kindness, especially people here on PC. Keep writing here as much as you like. I hope it helps a bit. We all love you here! Please don't give up. You deserve to live a good life. Feel free to PM me anytime. Sending many hugs to you