I am doing ok.

I know I could write this some where else, but I've wrote there before and I don't really need a reply back.... but

I put on a patch yesterday-for stop smoking.. I am one of those that fit in the group of "you may quit a thousand times before your last time"... I worry but am going to try to stay positive. I already know from the past I may get more emotional for the next few weeks. But I am hoping since I am living alone I can use the coping skills that I've learned along the way.

I was doing well in last August but September I feel off the wagon.. and holidays I knew myself enough to just try to keep steady. I had been pretty good with not going back to a pack a day.

I quit for almost a year one time, then I started to get stressed out and started smoking again.

From that time I've quit for months or weeks... but always get to a point of "need a cig to calm down".

I remember one therapist, a bipolar specialist, mentioned the first five minutes after smoking a cig is like an antipsychotic, she had an article on it... I am going to try hard this time.

I will still have a vape, but even with just the vape - it's not enough for me. The patches helped me in the times where I quit months or weeks, ...

I know exercise will help just getting back to it