I'm so sorry, Background Noise Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. That way you'll be able to learn how to deal with your emotions in a safe and healthy way. Maybe there are some books on the subject? I'd try to check it out if you can. To manage you anger, perhaps you could try yoga, or some similar exercises. Some people find it really helpful. I hope that things will get better and that you'll find what works best for you. I hope writing here helps a bit. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you