Hi bluebicycle, I am sorry you are experiencing this fear. If you have taken the medication before, why not try it out and see if it helps? You can always stop them if you don't like the side effects. You can still make that choice and trying them does not mean you have to take them forever. My honest opinion is that it seems like paranoia from what you are saying.

I have not had full paranoia that I am aware of, but I do get these somewhat paranoid type thoughts and feelings related to my anxiety and probable OCD. It is quite scary, but something I am learning is thoughts and feelings do no always equal the reality of a situation. Usually I find my fear is based on something real, like someone perhaps was dishonest with me, and then my mind takes it to another catastrophic level. The lack of uncertainty is tough, but you can always get more information by trying the meds, seeing how you feel, and then reassessing the situation.