Unlike a lot of other people, I don't have many if any choices for friendships, family, and especially romantic relationships. Some people are fine alone. I really want to have connections with people, but since so few are interested, in some ways I might have to settle.

I've only had one person like me enough to both date me and get involved with me physically and I'm 30. If I ever find someone who would want to be involved with me both physically and romantically, I'd give them a chance. Who knows how many years it'll be before someone is willing to do that again. There's just too much information shared on online dating sites now...it makes it seem like no one would like me or I'd have to settle some way...either for someone who is conservative sexually or someone who is close to their family (and will make me feel awful about not being close to mine, because no one seems to understand anything outside of their own experience anymore), or would require me to cut contact with my ex even though we're friends and there's no chance of us being involved again. I just seem to be one of the few people who can understand and accept that. There just aren't that many around here that might possibly accept me, so at some point, I'll have to figure out what the best choice is.

None of the people I've been close to and fully let them get to know me have accepted or understood me. That's probably asking too much though.