I'm so sorry you're feeling so lonely, Skull&Crossbones Please don't give up. Hopefully things will get better for you in the future. Things don't have to stay like this forever. I hope talking here at PC can help with the pain a little bit. I know it's not the same thing, but at least it's something. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm always available if you need to talk to someone. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. Sending many hugs to you