I am so depressed I feel all around me is dark. To see my kids I have a paralegal who mediates and I have to pay her 700 USD for each time, how can people profit from my misery. I asked her to just mediate to ask my ex wife to see my kids monthly. My exwife does not answer my emails and calls, her family does not help, and I am alone in Japan. A culture that is closed to foreigners by nature. And I love my exwife so much how can I cure my broken heart and every single time I see a glimpse of the life I had with her how can I forget her, I miss her so much, I think I have no way out and I want to take my life. How can I cure myself? If I only could get my kids exwife I need some advice some help.