I ask because a few times I have literally watched it happen but I could do nothing but watch it unfold. No way to help myself.

Other times I just check out during it all.

I love hypo the world is bright and shiny and nothing is impossible.

I get scared when Manic, paranoid and delusional.

I get mildly depressed and I can rationalize it most times.

I know full depression will never end.

I’m mostly scared of mixed , very dangerous time for me, I’m very likely to try and make a grand exit.

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