I'm pretty much the same as you Christina.

Hypomanic is generally fun (well at least for me). I am usually euphoric, energetic, charismatic and unfortunately very irritable so I tend to have road rage etc. I recall all of this even though I may not have much insight at the time.

Manic - higher than highs tending towards delusional (I am god etc). Unfortunately I tend to get this way while rapid cycling so it switches to the worst, most raging depression ever, then back and I am basically unaware I was down at all. I often have blackouts of times during this period. These episodes can get very dangerous but thankfully happen rarely. Generally I am hospitalised.

Depression - I rarely get only depressed. Mild depression is fine, but not fun. Severe depression is a nightmare but I generally am safe.

Severely Mixed - unfortunately my main type of major episode, and they can get so severe they require hospitalisation to keep me safe. I generally want to tear my body apart as I am so low but so agitated it is unbearable. The idea of continuing living another day is torture. I also often have blackouts during these episodes and need others to remind me what happened. These episodes terrify my loved ones.

Rapid Cycling - basically this is my baseline state. It is annoying but mild. Occasionally I am stable for a while too.