You are always good enough, whispershadow No matter what other people say. We all love you here. Please remember that. I'm sorry you're having problems with your computer, but that's not your fault at all! Please don't give up. I hope you'll feel better soon. Avoid YouTube if it's triggering you. If it can help a bit... I'm here for you. I'll listen to what you have to say. I care about you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. You can do this! You're strong, I'm sure of that. Sending many hugs to you