Thank you for sharing everything you've shared. I can certainly relate to your concerns. I was addicted to drugs and suffering from a handful of unmedicated mental illnesses, the combination of which was literally destroying my marriage. I quite possibly was the worst husband ever. Let me share with you what changed that.

For one, recognize your concerns as being valid, but try not to keep them to yourself. Once I realized that I could talk to my wife about anything, we were able to make huge steps in repairing what was broken. A lot of my worries, she wasn't even concerned with. In the same breath, however, there was a lot that I didn't notice that was affecting her. The only way I was able to see the blind spots and relieve some of the stress was through open communication. Think about it, this person is your mate. Even though it is hard sometimes you should be able to talk to each other about anything and everything. It will allow you to grow together and solve some issues at the same time.

He loves you. He has stuck with you through the bad. Imagine how good it will be when you get this stuff off of your chest and begin to work it out. Your days may not be perfect, but they certainly will be a lot better for your whole family.