I'm not sure where to turn so I am writing here to hopefully make myself feel better. I hope I marked this thread correctly and I hope someone sees it. I feel so low today. I want to leave work and hurt myself. If not for my kids I would. My son keeps me tied to this world. I hate going through this roller coaster of feelings. I wish my ups were as up as my lows are low. I feel hopeless and lost in life. I hate everything about me. I don't think I need to be here anymore. I have to hang on for my kids. I grew up without a Dad and it's so hard. Maybe they would get on better without me though.

I'm not sure what I am expecting from writing this except to clear my head of these thoughts. I'm trying everything I can. I feel so alone