He offered me an orange when I arrived, which I accepted. He said, "good, I like when you accept the food I offer and we eat together." (At pretty much every session, he offers me something to eat because it's his snack time. I often decline. I typically don't want granola bars or cookies or pieces of cheese, which are common offerings. But I love oranges! And one time I accepted some filberts, which I adore.) Then he gave me my own waste basket and took another for himself, and we silently peeled our oranges into the baskets. lol, these little things are so great. Can't believe the high point of my day was peeling oranges with T! Are we connected yet?

I was in a good place today, coming off a big success this weekend in a major talk with my H on sensitive topics I was very scared to bring up with him. But I did, and it went well, and I felt kind of empowered. T said he was proud of me. H and I have a big meeting later this week with T and another mental health professional to hash out some things about our custody plan for the kids. I feel ready for that now.

After we were done talking about the main topic, T asked, "what else are you needing?" That freaks me a little because I am not good at all at telling people my needs. I've gotten better at that through therapy. But the truth was today I didn't really need anything else. I felt good and very functional. So T and I just chatted the rest of the time, and I told him about a weird hobby of mine that I'd never shared before. It was a fine session....

It gets me wondering though, if I felt so competent and functional and basically, happy, all the time, would I need to go to therapy anymore? Is there going to come a time when I go sit in his office and have no needs and there is nothing to say? And then will that mean it is time to never come back? I mean, it would be dumb to keep paying for therapy if we are just going to discuss hobbies and eat fruit together, right? LOL, I can't believe this whole termination topic is occurring to me now--but I just felt really functional today.... Don't worry, sunny, it's probably only fleeting (call out the malevolent ego states!).