I am so glad you posted. We are all here to support each other. Depression is a horrible beast. One thing that is for certain is that it will pass. I agree with Innerzone, be completely honest with your T etc and if that leads to hospitalisation it will likely pull you out of this much sooner than if you wait for it to pass naturally. You may not need to be hospitalised either. Maybe your pdoc can help you as an OP. Hang in there and keep reaching out.