I feel like I’m a pariah to the whole of humanity. It is so hard to explain but I guess the feeling I have is one of being completely isolated. People are polite to me and I try very hard to be polite back, but I have a nagging feeling that they have a deep and guttural hatred for me and I really don’t know why. I feel like I’m so hopelessly awkward, I try to say something casual but maybe it comes off as rude? I try to share my interests with people but feel like I’m boring them or coming off as a know-it-all. There are times I wish I could just stay in the house forever and not have to interact with anyone, but then I do get so lonely.