LT

I get that but again as a T, it's kind of his job to support you, and all clients. It's not like he's gonna outright say "You suck, you can't do it" that would be awful... well in general but especially for a T. You and I both tend to read into things that aren't there so what you thought he was saying, likely wasn't what he was saying at all, you know he supports you. He has so much already.... but again, you need to have faith in you. Do YOU believe YOU can do it? That's what counts most. This isn't about making T happy or anything, its about YOU and the changes you are making in yourself.

Not that it matters, but I do support you. I believe you can do anything you set your mind to. I also don't think a T is an authority figure, he's no better than you. He's paid to listen to you, not tell you what to do. Honestly, clients have a lot of pull in the relationship too, WE can fire them, WE can report them, WE can stop going and make them lose money etc. I think of it more an equals. Maybe I'm nuts though but I never saw any T as an authority anything.

I know T is the only support that matters to you, but you have tons of support in your journey. Many people here, your H, your D, others in your family, friends, other people online, many people believe you can do this. Many people hope you can succeed... but is one of those people YOU?