(((((((((Katt)))))))))))
I'm sorry you're so sad

We all slip-up, honey. There is not one person in this forum that doesn't understand that. Just try not to let it ruin your resolve to keep trying. It is possible to quit self-injury, but not until YOU ARE READY. And I personally think it takes a LOT of tries, and a LOT of help and support and learning. A lot, lot, lot of learning. You're just getting started. This is not the end of the journey, just a bump in the road honey.
Keep posting. We love you so much here, and we are always here to help.
*hugs*
Angela